I read Psalm 31 this morning between rushes at the shop. I can't remember if it's the exact one that Dave referenced in his talk Sunday night, but it was a comfort regardless. I had been so down on myself again after what transpired yesterday. And then came the realization that I shouldn't take it that way. This "battle", if you will, does not change how God feels about me, does not change how I feel about God. If anything, I think this will strengthen our relationship, though it will take a whole heck of a lot of trust and patience.
Nor do I think it will necessarily change their relationship with God. I don't know at this point what this will all change, but I think it will be worth it. Probably in ways I can not even name or think of at this point.
And they are not my enemy. We are working through this together. We just don't understand each other fully.
I just need to focus on staying positive, getting back to where I was. Reclaim the sense of peace that only the Holy Spirit is providing me with the knowledge that it's out of my hands.
"Into your hands I commit my spirit; redeem me, O Lord, the God of truth."
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