8 Finally, all of you should be of one mind. Sympathize with each other. Love each other as brothers and sisters.[a] Be tenderhearted, and keep a humble attitude. 9 Don’t repay evil for evil. Don’t retaliate with insults when people insult you. Instead, pay them back with a blessing. That is what God has called you to do, and he will bless you for it.
Hard words to put in to practice when you feel like you're always getting the short end of the deal. That you do more for less. When you see others go without consequence for doing something you know you would be judged for. For seeing people you thought were your friends slowly slip away and you become so much less than.
Enough of that. I need to escape the confinement of expectation and discover a new plan.
I went to Sunday School/Bible Study this week for the first time in a couple years. It felt good. I think I've been slipping down the slope of going through the motions of being a "good Christian" of late. Especially with the rapid disintegration of the small group that I really felt God wanted me to create and be a part of. That mixed with other reasons have made me feel more apathetic about actively spending time with or seeking God. It all just seems so discouraging.
However, I am so thankful for the handful of true friends I have around me. I always think it's funny how God tends to take the people I expect the least to ever have anything in common with and before I know it, they're the people who seem to be there the most. So many of my really good current friends or people I have been closest to in the past have been people I never thought I would like when I first met them. Shows what I know.
Not a whole heck of a lot.